"Love" has Changed!

I realized I haven't written anything the way I use to for a long time already... I guess there aren't anything that rings my "bell" anymore...

Well, anyway I've been thinking about the past and the current happenings in my life right now... I realized that I've gotten more mature than before... I've come to realize that I have moved on... to a better state of mind... to a better way of thinking... to a better way of living my life... but I am not gonna end my statement there... I know that there will come a time that I will be tested again... like how life is suppose to be... What they say is true though... without darkness... we wouldn't know light... without sorrows.... we wouldn't feel happiness... without betrayal... we wouldn't understand trust.... without hatred... we'll probably never love...

Hmm... I've been down the drain many times... Loving too much has been a curse to me... I always end up terribly hurt... I am actually surprised that I found myself smiling again... but my notion of Love has changed... before... life was like a fairytale to me... but it was like I had gone through a lot of calamities that I was stripped painfully to see the bold truth... Having to get through all the things I've gone through... "Love" was now very hard to define... I can not define it with simple words... or even the biggest words I know.... I now do not know what "Love" really is... but I know... one day, I would understand that word again... Eventhough this is the case, life is much easier... I am in no hurry to redefine it again... I am just happy by the way things are going right now... everything just depends on how the river flows... I do not understand the things around me at the moment... but it makes me smile everytime.... hmm... I guess this road is worth a trip ;p gotto go peeps...