"Love" has Changed!

I realized I haven't written anything the way I use to for a long time already... I guess there aren't anything that rings my "bell" anymore...

Well, anyway I've been thinking about the past and the current happenings in my life right now... I realized that I've gotten more mature than before... I've come to realize that I have moved on... to a better state of mind... to a better way of thinking... to a better way of living my life... but I am not gonna end my statement there... I know that there will come a time that I will be tested again... like how life is suppose to be... What they say is true though... without darkness... we wouldn't know light... without sorrows.... we wouldn't feel happiness... without betrayal... we wouldn't understand trust.... without hatred... we'll probably never love...

Hmm... I've been down the drain many times... Loving too much has been a curse to me... I always end up terribly hurt... I am actually surprised that I found myself smiling again... but my notion of Love has changed... before... life was like a fairytale to me... but it was like I had gone through a lot of calamities that I was stripped painfully to see the bold truth... Having to get through all the things I've gone through... "Love" was now very hard to define... I can not define it with simple words... or even the biggest words I know.... I now do not know what "Love" really is... but I know... one day, I would understand that word again... Eventhough this is the case, life is much easier... I am in no hurry to redefine it again... I am just happy by the way things are going right now... everything just depends on how the river flows... I do not understand the things around me at the moment... but it makes me smile everytime.... hmm... I guess this road is worth a trip ;p gotto go peeps...

"Way Back in to Love"

*** I really love this song...***

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

"For Ten Please!"

Last night, my movie buddies and I decided to watch "Ratatouille"... it was actually my turn to pay the tickets so I invited 2 people over... :) I forgot how it all happened but I ended up reserving tickets for 10... I was excited and happy... and for the first time we were more than 5... its a very sweet night... hehehe because we were all like kids roaming around timezone... waiting for our movie(LFS)... Anyway, a lot had crossed my mind that night... I am happy but there are things that bothers me at the moment.... hayyyy I better go... Just an update!