Was It My Hair?!

Years and years before, I always have 3 kinds of hairstyle... Layered, Curl or One length... Nothing new for years and years now... One day... I was holding my scissors and sort of just cut my "bangs" short without thinking... so there... I have a new hairstyle... hehe

Anyway, they said a new hairstyle is always followed by a change in life... Didn't know it would mean a big change in my life though... Anyway, my life was really boring... but after cutting the front part of my hair short... everything started to change... I was able to meet new people in my life... :) They are really different... they made me feel like I really matter... It saddens me though, because I know one day... some of them would need to leave me... Oh well, that is how life is... You have to hurt and be hurt in order to be fair... But whatever may happen after that.... I would always treasure them in my heart....

So if its the "bangs" that made this all things happen to me... I must consider a carreer with hairs... hahaha

My Best Vacation Ever!

Went to Ilocos Sur and Ilocos Norte just this November. To those who doesn't know where those places are... Its in the northern part of Luzon, Philippines. Anyway, I just pleaded to come with my sister's prenuptial pictorial. So there, after 12 hours of drive and 2 stops we arrived in Laoag City. The plan was to fetch a friend, Wilford, and stay for a while then go to Burgos where we rented a beach house. But we were so tired we couldn't get out of our friend's bed... So, we all decided to spend a night...

The next morning... we left for Burgos. Rested for a while but went on to our plan for the day... Dropped by the famous lighthouse in the Philippines. Shoot some photos in Cape Bojeador where they say one lady in white guards it. ohhhh scary! The Lighthouse keeper said it in one T.V. program one time... But anyway, the place was really photographic! Next, one of the famous beaches in the Philippines, Pagudpod. Oh yeah, the sand was fine and the waves were wild... I'm scared to get in the water so I opted to just play with the sand as I search for a souvenir... I found this uber cool bangles that they sell 3 to 4 times more expensive in Manila... ha! ha! Yet the best place we went to was the Wind Farm! The big "fans" that supplies electricity to some parts of the Philippines almost scared the hell out of us... They seemed like they were going to fall... Plus the strong winds making us want to go pee pee he! he! he! Anyway, the place is also wide and really great to ride ATV... I got cool pictures with Wilford's ATV there. Wee! While my sister was still shooting pictures for her wedding, I got to know my stranger-then-companions. Raymond, Wilford and Sotay, were all gentlemen to provide me anything I might need... Oh gosh, I feel like a princess! ha!ha! Okay, snap it!

Back in Burgos, we started a fire and cooked some fish and hot dogs over the grill! While enjoying the fresh from the grill food, we started to drink some beer. Oh yeah, this is life. I am not much of a drinker but I drink occasionally. Got drunk real fast so the bonding moments with my new found friends were cut short because I really need to go to sleep... he! he! Plus my sister is already giving me the looks! :)) lol!

The next morning, we shoot some photos on the abandoned ship just 50 meters away from our beach house. While my sister was busy posing for the cameras, two of my new friends found time to talk to me regarding their personal life :)) We are now good friends! :)) After the shoot, on our way to the next location... Patapat cascading water falls... The water was icy cold and I just couldn't believe we were going to take a bath there... but hey! this is once in a lifetime experience so I jumped into my swimwear and soaked myself in the river... Burrrr! We hiked to the top of the falls so we wouldn't feel so cold but we later found out that we would take hours to get to the top! We then drived back to Burgos and set a bonfire. There I got closer to my new found friends which made my entire vacation fun. They were the funniest people I've ever met.

The last day of my stay saddens me a little. My vacation is over after one last stop today. Vigan, the place known for its very old houses and a field where people and animals can sort of interact.

Ahh... it was a long drive back... but having new friends and this vacation to think about makes it all worth the wrinkly butts and aching joints we have... hehe

My "Stone Cold" Lover!

Well, I have tried so many things just to tell him that I am so sad that he is not sweet... and he always gives me the same answer... Lately, I have been in the end of my wits since he just wouldn't compromise... but now, I think I have learned to adjust... Now that I have accepted that he would never say sweet things because he finds it so mushy... I realized that he does shows affection in a different way... like he reaches for my hand... or ask me if I have eaten dinner... rubs my back whenever he misses me... he kisses me on the forehead... and lets me squeeze him so tight that he finds it hard to breathe! hehehe He just lets me be... not meaning to change me in anyway... Hay.... I don't want to fall inlove with someone so "stiff"... but when I am with him... I need to constantly remind myself not to fall too fast... because what he has that makes me want to fall some more is just the way he is being his stone-cold self!

It Does Pays to Be Healthy!

Whew... I saw this horrible clips of "diabetes" on T.V. Scared the h*ll off me because it runs in our family... oohh But anyway, it got me thinking that with how hard life is today... everyone needs to go out their way and set plan for whatever might happen... Yes, I am talking about our health....

Self-employed people in New York just seems to have a difficult time affording other health insurance... but its a good thing that Healthy NY was established! Now being cautious on health just seems more possible for those who can't seem to afford normal health insurance.... They provide vast benefits that are solutions to most of New Yorkers problems which is really great! From hospital coverages to physician services to Diabetes equipments to maternity care, and so on and so forth...

So there! I think that we all should take care of ourselves because no one else wil do... the more cautious we are to our health, the longer we would stay healthy... and the healthier we are... the better we can perform... the faster we earn... the longer time we can earn a living... so what are you waiting for? Check out Healthy New York... because it does pays to be healthy!

"Knocked Up"

There was a sneak preview of "Knocked Up" last night... My sort of boyfriend took me to see the movie... It was really cool... and its one of my favorite!!! Makes me want to have a child :)) kidding! I am really scared of having to give birth... that is why the movie just made me wish I wasn't a woman hehehe I can't say anything much in here.... people might hate me for spoiling the suspense :)) Anyway, it was a great night... and I had a wonderful time with my date! Although I got a bad head ache... the great movie and my great date made me forgot about it :)) I misha my "bald" man! :))

A few lights and VIOLA!!!

Finally, a place for us... My mom finally agreed to make our dad share with us the extra room (garage) down stairs so we could put up our own studio... All we need now are shelves to organize our things and the things that we can't throw because of sentimental values hehe Cloths for props, bright lights and of course... garage lighting! Well, the last one was of course the most important.... I have tried working in the garage already using 2 15 watts bulb because my dad was trying to save money... but it was really hard to search for the right items to shoot especially when there are color variation on one item... and what we hate the most is dropping our pens everytime we take notes... it rolls somewhere and because its a little dark we probably lost a box already... we just lost count! haha! Working now is faster and easier... Because now that we have garage lighting already, viola, CONVENIENCE on our instant studio!!!

"I Will Follow You Into The Dark"

BY: death cab for cutie



Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Proud Part of the PPP Family!

Hey! I am really excited... I nearly lost my balance when I saw that my blog has been accepted by the payperpost! My sister-in-law told me about this and she said that PPP has been giving out great opportunities, user-friendly site and most of all it pays really well... As how she enthusiastically said it... and now I understood her reaction! I think she was right! Now, I am as enthusiastic as she is!!! *laughs*

The first time I applied, I got declined and I was really sad. Yet, they e-mailed me so I can rectify my errors and so I am here! I got approved!
Now, I am so excited while starting to take my steps to richness hahaha... Who would've thought that my love of writing could provide me this big opportunity! Thanks again to the <payperpost!

"Unsweetened" Man

Like my blog... Like how life is suppose to be.... That everything should be unsweetened... that everyone should not say so many words if they only meant one...

I found my man just how I visualize everything... He was just what you see of him... no more, no less... He iritates me most of the time because he seems to not care about us... He doesn't give a lot of time for me... He doesn't call too much... I fought with him about it... but tried to listen to him as well...

My "unsweetened" is sickly and the weather here is bad... He caught flu and then he had bronchitis... I doubt if he was really sick... Anyway, he also has 5 businesses... and is very responsible to his family because he is the breadwinner since his father died while he was young...

He sounded so out of luck... But knowing him for three years... has made me patient and understanding... He was just what he really is... and asking much from him will change the way he really is... It saddens me that we can't adjust to each other... but everytime we're together... Our presence compensates the bad feelings we had... He was just what he really is... and he wants me to accept that like he had accepted me without questions...

Dial to Fly!!!

Some of my friends calls me "The Relax Master"! I am zen as I say! I do not like it when I am put to pressure that is why I like everything easy! Like just a click or a dial away!

When I need food fast... I call the food delivery service... When I need to send something... I call the package service to pick it up! And when I need to fly.. for beach holidays... to relax... I dial a flight!

I get the most convenient service because they also offer nice hotels to stay to... sometimes I do not even think of my plans... I just ask for their travelling ideas! NO HASSLES... everything is just how I wanted it to be!!! Sort of made for me! So with matters of travel! May you need Cheap Flights, Business Class Flights or Holiday Flights be sure to know their number and dial a flight so we could all be zen!

My Early Christmas Wishlist...

I just saw this cool camera... Ohhh.... I wish someone would give me Cannon 350D... I really want to have a photography career hehehe yet since I got no money to buy myself one.... I made my early christmas wishlist so Santa could think about what to buy me :)) aside from the camera of course!!! :P

1. Of course! Cannon 350D :)
2. Toyota Vios or Honda Jazz... :P and an approve license to go with it! :)
3. A small pad of my own... :P so I can be alone!
4. A year supply of universal movie tickets
5. Hmmm and gold card for airlines... :P
6. A jewelry set from Hearts and Fire :))
7. Complete diving gear and a speed boat or yacht

Now, if santa would have to choose from any of my list... I think he would choose the first one!!! LOLZ!

Bingo on Pingo!!!

People who knows me, knows that I talk a lot... and I really love to chat with my friends a lot! Especially with my best friend Jocelyn... But when she left to another state... I was really missing her and dying to talk to her again! I soon tried calling her and in the middle of our laughters and funny stories... there was this phone card that kept on cutting the line every 10 to 15 minutes... I suddenly found myself talking to myself! Quite irritating...

Good thing a friend of hers told her about Pingo! A company that makes communication easier with their cell phone cards and international calling card that gives out 5 Hours of Free Call and charges way smaller compared to the other phone cards I've tried!!! Isn't that just awesome! Its a good thing I have learned about this...

Now, I could talk to my friend like I am Million-Hours-international-call-richer!!! This is like a blessing in disguise because now, I Call United States like its just a city beside our city! Haha! Not only that Pingo's prepaid calling card prices are discounted! Special phone card blog discount coupon: “ppp3” valid for $3 off Pingo!!!
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The Older We Get... The More Unhappy We Are...

I remember feeling like heaven the first time my mom bought us popsicles... It still gives me a smile and it warms my heart.... We never really had the convenience of life when we were young... My brother use to sell salt in the market while he was in first or second grade... My mom and dad sells anything they can in the market but some people took advantage of us back then... so we went to the city... to look for greener pasture:) Anyway, the thought of popsicles reminds me of how the song goes... "Happiness means... two kinds of ice cream... ...learning to tie your shoe lace..."... something like that... Back then, popsicles gave me an overwhelming happiness... so does old toys given to us on Christmas... and eating on a fast food chain on special occassions... These things lost their appeal to me as I grew old... Now that I am working... It is easy for me to treat myself a popsicle or a fast food experience... Now that I grew up... toys just do not seem to matter anymore... Makes me wish I never grew up... because now... problems are not as easy as failing a pop-quiz... or pissing my mom by not studying... :( Now, problems sometimes depresses me and sometimes even tears me into pieces... But what can we do? That is just how life goes.... The older we get... the more unhappy we are... And day by day... happiness seems so distant...

Bid the Lowest... Bring Home the Prizes!!!

This is a unique kind of bidding I have seen so far... When I visited their website I was in awe, literally! People can get the prizes at the lowest unique bid! Meaning they aren't after who can pay the highest but anyone lucky could really win such great prizes... Cash Prizes and great gifts like HDTV, Signature bags, Hi-quality Digital cameras, etc.! Ohh This is really like winning the Sweepstake!*big grin*

Such a fun way to play and have a great chance of winning... Not only that they offer cool free gifts after being the lowest unique bidder... but also their site is really user-friendly and very easy to understand!

Joining is easy as 1-2-3 and is free! So what are you waiting for... this auction will make you feel you are halfway to being the luckiest!!!

Vividly Inlove?

Okay... what is the worst feeling than someone really special forgot your birthday? My sort of boyfriend forgot mine... I was really sad but I kinda expected it already... He is the busiest man I know... and he is currently sick... but still busy... After work, he goes to a lot of meetings and then as soon as he arrives home... he sleeps because he feels too sick! We do not talk so often and sometimes we just send around 2 to 3 messages a day... So, a day before my birthday, I thought of telling him so I wouldn't be disappointed... but a friend of mine said no... because he would remember it... but I guess he didn't...

He was different amongst all the people I know... He shows care but you would mistake him at times that he really is uncaring... He is really not very showy but he shows me his side that others do not usually see... and I really admire his dedication to his work... his wit and humor... his taste and his silly ideas... but sometimes he pisses me off... he drives me crazy with his behavior... and he usually lacks time for me... but knowing him for more than 3 years... he has conditioned my mind that he is really just like that... and that him being too busy does not mean he cares less for me... so there... even if my head is about to burst... I make it a point to cool down and try to hear his reasons... he says this is really him... to be fair to him... he never really tried to change me too hehehe so I guess he just wants me to adapt to his behavior as he would in mine...

Ahay... I dunno what I am feeling.... I really am happy with what we have...

*Click* for "GOLD"

As I have been blabbering about days ago... My sister and I are just starting an online business... We are not much of techno-people that is why we have no clue as to how to spread words of our site through the internet aside from the non-traditional advertising we could afford... or better yet rely on words-of-mouth from good friends! Well these are good marketing but sometimes we just have to think outside of the usual box to get access to bigger things in business that I consider "GOLD"! So there... discountclick came across...

I realize that this Search Engine Marketing could help us get more traffic to our site by helping us get acquainted with popular search engines such as Google, Yahoo, MSN, Altavista and more, thus, attracting more customers at a very reasonable price!!! Isn't that cool?! Now, with this kind of promotion services, it is easier to *click* for "Gold"!

OOOpsss! Strike!!!

I'm kinda too occupied lately... I haven't slept well for 3 days... but I am good! As far as I thought... that was until tonight...

Days ago... I tried putting up a business with my sister... it was okay but there are things I do every night so I could sell more by day... In summary, because of all these things I do every night... Not to mention, being busy dating with someone *smugs* I just happen to lack sleep... and in the morning my boss who happens to be my mom... kept on nagging me why I look tired and sleepy... even if I do not sleep at work... it just sometimes pisses me off because she nags me for a different reason... She doesn't like it much when I am out my house... that is why she kept nagging me about my movie night outs... Anyway, this adds up to my stress... if this is stress... Normally, I just let things pass and when I am so pissed off... I just burst into emotions and almost all the time that happens... I regret it! Since all these stuff came just days ago... my brain is like too full to accomodate any... My sister asked me something and I kept on repeating the answer over the phone and she kept on "disecting" things... I raised my voice and viola... an instant war! But we're good... Normally, we just do not last a day without talking... and the last thing I regret was when two friends played a joke on me just recently... On normal times, I would just laugh about it... hmmm I did laughed about it but a comment pushed my button... Well, you probably can tell what happened but I just want to say sorry to that friend! I didn't mean to pour it all on you! Especially, when your special girl is around! ;) Peace Bro! I hope you understand... Anyway, this post is for you! *muah*

Shop & Swipe!!!

Yeah! Our small company is doing great... More customer traffic because of this Card Processor Merchant we found... Now our clients say that we define convenience!!! *winks* They did not know how much help we had thanks to your company who understands us! We are really lucky to have found this Merchant Processor!!! So one big HURRAH for this company, for making it all easy for businesses regardless of the size!!! They didn't just made our lives easier but also attracted more customers for us... so I bet we'll be growing bigger in no time!!! So people... make your life easier with us... SHOP & SWIPE your way without worries because MS Merchant Account is here!

Always Best When Sugarfree!!!

Are you tired of seeing movies that ends in the same way all the other movies do? Are you tired of predictable stories that you just want to sleep even if it has only reach the midst? Are you tired of sugar-coated, mushy love life that only happens in fairy tales? Well then, brace yourself because here comes Coke zero!!! Indeed, real stories doesn't end the same way... they can flow and end in millions of different variations... But still the most exciting ones are the ones we create ourselves...


Now, you could simply express your creativity... Make your own video... you decide the flow!!! The next minute... you wouldn't even realize you are already having fun and being extra productive! Dictate how the story should flow... more like play God for a moment... Create and show off your idea of life... because living is better with all the essences of it... love and pain, joy and tears, victory and fall... so start now with Coke Zero there to back you up!!!

"Credit Card? We Got It!!!"

My sister and I are planning to put up a retail store via internet... I didn't know how it really works in matters of delivery and payment... aside from bank transfers that our client find so inconvenient we had to look for alternative way to accept payment... This is where we researched about Retail Store Card Processing!

I think they have given us a considerable rates since we are new and our company is considered risky... But anyway, Transaction Rates are Lower compared to the other companies we've inquired on so I guess we really made a great choice! We are more than satisfied with their effort on assisting us even if our company is really just a small one.... Thanks to this company we can now give the best and the most convenient service to our customers!

Caught Unguarded!

So there! I was walking with my sister along the Mall of Asia just earlier... and then I bumped into someone I never expected to see that time... the cousin of someone from my past... I greeted him when he came near me... told me that he was with his cousins... I didn't ask who they were but he just told me familiar names.... it actually meant nothing to me but a thought crossed my mind... even if its almost impossible for me to see one person again, I thought about what if we crossed path again... Should I say "hi"? Should I act like a good friend? Or should I turn around and pretend to have suddenly changed my way like its the spur of the moment or something? Some friends advised me to pretend like I didn't care about losing that person in my life... hmmm... I don't really think I have to pretend 'coz I really didn't care anymore hihihi... Some told me to not forget how cruel he was to me to the extent that I "ended" my life... too hurt to go on... too wounded... too tired...

Neo, a friend of mine, told me to not think about that incident because that person wouldn't care about what I have to say because he was an a**h**e... he told me that he was not worthy of any forgiveness... I told him that I do not want to die with grudges... Neo was just different from anyone... he would never forgive anyone who he thinks never deserves and that never bothered him... but it was different with me... I can't be that stern... when I think about it... at the end of the day, the only thing that matters to me is how I really am... I am happy now... and I guess being happy for me involves forgiveness to anyone... even the most "unforgivable" ones... although, I haven't forgotten his faults... I really... honestly think and feel that I have forgiven him.... and this is why I started my life again...

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In MOA, I saw this girl without brassiere and her "thing" were just in cold... if you know what I mean... My sister was the one who saw her actually... she just pointed her to us because her "thing" were just too obvious to defy... hehehe We just tried to contain our eyes to ourselves and communicated to each other with glares hehehehe In this country, that "fashion" sense is not very normal... so I guess no one could blame us... We then minded our own business until one woman without teeth and scary hairdo... came to her and took her to the table of a very old guy... and that guy gave her money and they left... so I guess that explains why she isn't wearing any brassieres... hehe I love observing people at times... I get stories without watching TV... Just making things up in my own mind and not really knowing what is behind all the acts... :D ciao bloggers!

Blogs Get Loud @ Bloggerwave!

Finally, a news worth hearing! Now, bloggers like me can just spend more time writing and get paid more for what we love to do. Yes people, one great opportunity to earn while enjoying life in the comfort of our home and in our own convenience!

Presenting... the Bloggerwave! Another spectacular blogger's dream! I share the same sentiment, alright! Yeah, I really do... Not only because I earn more in simple reason that I really love writing but also because they offer great opportunities just within reach of everyone by making the world smaller for all advertisers and bloggers!

Signing up is just a snap and opportunities just comes flooding, so what are you waiting for? Lets earn more by "Bloggerwaving" it on! If you think this isn't great, I just don't know what is!!!

My Boss, My Friend

My previous boss went online earlier. She saw me and tried to catch things up. I'm happy to have heard about her after 2 years. She was a really cool boss but we had a few misunderstandings before... Hmm... It was probably because of me! She hated me when I am inlove. I use to lose my focus on everything, yet, I think I learned my lesson already. We talked about it and I said sorry for all the wrongs I might have done to her and she unhessitantly said it was nothing. I was really touched when she said if incase I wanted to go back, I am more than welcome... Hay... Though I missed her and my work, I am really glad to have left my job there. Many people benefited from it though not professionally. It was more on personal matters. I'd rather not tell who they were... hehe I do not want to revive my past... Anyway, she told me that she is happy that I have opened my eyes to reality... and that I have learned my lessons already... She was finally glad for me... I jokingly told her that I thank her for loving me that much haha and she said of course I do love you... and that pricked my heart! I just assured her that I did learned my lessons... and some lessons only instill when you have learned them the hard way... :)

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I have a thought... I am considered a good advicer by a few friends of mine. Not to brag or anything but one of them even calls me the "Oracle"... haha I never thought I have helped people already by my "powerful" words hahaha but I am really happy I did... hmmm now thinking about it, I think I have never followed any of my advices... you see, I am really stubborn and the only way for me to learn these lessons is to suffer first.... I guess sometimes you can never remember things when there isn't any pain in your chest... the mind remebers but the heart never forgets!

Drive with Pride!!!

I have been accident prone since I was a kid, but still I had to do things on my own. Because I badly need to drive, my friend told me to get a car insurance or something... I didn't know where to look and I am really stucked with my work so she suggested to look for an Online Insurance Policy.
Imagine, there will be no more hassle inquiring on a lot of insurance company just to get the best deal on Automobile Insurance Policies! Some of the companies you inquired on will even test your temper because they will not just let you off easily if you wish not to apply anymore. I hate haggling so much as well and canvassing is really taking much of my time... But this was like a heavensent! I got multiple choices in my convenience and advantage because I could just choose the one who offers best! Ahhh... This is life! Talk about convenience! I just sent my application and BAM! I just got the best for me online and with the best price! Not only that I didn't have to waste my time on looking for who to contact and set a meeting with, I save money but still get the best offer! What more could I ask?
Now, I am just enjoying more time for myself and work. Thanks to Advantage Auto Quote! Who would've thought that what's best is just a click away?! Ciao!

Food is Great @ CYMA

Last week, I went to Edsa Shangri-La Plaza with someone and he recommended this restaurant to me... CYMA Greek Taverna... It was really an experience to remember... since it was rarely that we visit this mall... we asked that our names to be included in their long waiting list... It was long... because almost all the people seems to not mind waiting in line than look for other places to eat... Eventhough there were more than 5 other choices beside it... Anyway, I do not really like waiting but we weren't very hungry so it was okay to wait... after all the walks we took just to pass time... we were already being given a table for two... My date was the one who knows about their menu so we ordered one of his best recommended dish... the Swordfish Kebab! For him, he ordered the Eggplant Moussaka! Since the serving was too big for us and we both wanted to have the two dishes, we decided to share... *blushes* haha okay snap it! The smell when my kebab arrived... My goodness! I became hungry in an instant! It was so heavenly... It was worth the wait! The meat of the swordfish was really tender and fresh... and I really like everything that is char-grilled! It enhances the taste of the herbs... I felt like I am getting a seizure! haha okay that was a little too much! But hey I really love food and this was a taste of heaven for me! Anyway, the Moussaka got a really unique taste... very creamy and quite heavy in the tummy... I think it is only good on little servings... yet, the experience of a spoonful of it in my mouth was quite undefinable... it was bursting with flavor... the hint of cheese combined with some sort of a meat and crushed tomatoes really blends well with the flavor of the eggplant... I couldn't really describe the experience with words but I think everybody needs atleast a CYMA moment of his life!!!

After Everything...

I stopped posting entries on my blog since last year... I even forgot this ever existed... but one day.... someone asked me about this and I suddenly had the urge to post an entry here again... But it wasn't that easy... I only remembered my link on this blog... I forgot my password and the e-mail account I used for this... after days of trial and error... I finally got it back.... reading all my post here made me laugh though... I really love hard alright... but now I am not sure anymore... I am quite happy right now... not really inlove but enjoying every bit of my time getting to know someone better... and perhaphs I have learned my lesson... test the water before you dive! or maybe look at the water level first! haha All I know is I just woke up one day and found my self in deep sh... nevermind! Because of that I think I am more matured than before... I realize that a relationship is not just something you would want and get in an instant... it takes a lot of patience... and I think I'm really getting use to this... not in a hurry and sort of enjoying the scenery... this is all for now... see yah 'round!

"Love" has Changed!

I realized I haven't written anything the way I use to for a long time already... I guess there aren't anything that rings my "bell" anymore...

Well, anyway I've been thinking about the past and the current happenings in my life right now... I realized that I've gotten more mature than before... I've come to realize that I have moved on... to a better state of mind... to a better way of thinking... to a better way of living my life... but I am not gonna end my statement there... I know that there will come a time that I will be tested again... like how life is suppose to be... What they say is true though... without darkness... we wouldn't know light... without sorrows.... we wouldn't feel happiness... without betrayal... we wouldn't understand trust.... without hatred... we'll probably never love...

Hmm... I've been down the drain many times... Loving too much has been a curse to me... I always end up terribly hurt... I am actually surprised that I found myself smiling again... but my notion of Love has changed... before... life was like a fairytale to me... but it was like I had gone through a lot of calamities that I was stripped painfully to see the bold truth... Having to get through all the things I've gone through... "Love" was now very hard to define... I can not define it with simple words... or even the biggest words I know.... I now do not know what "Love" really is... but I know... one day, I would understand that word again... Eventhough this is the case, life is much easier... I am in no hurry to redefine it again... I am just happy by the way things are going right now... everything just depends on how the river flows... I do not understand the things around me at the moment... but it makes me smile everytime.... hmm... I guess this road is worth a trip ;p gotto go peeps...

"Way Back in to Love"

*** I really love this song...***

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

"For Ten Please!"

Last night, my movie buddies and I decided to watch "Ratatouille"... it was actually my turn to pay the tickets so I invited 2 people over... :) I forgot how it all happened but I ended up reserving tickets for 10... I was excited and happy... and for the first time we were more than 5... its a very sweet night... hehehe because we were all like kids roaming around timezone... waiting for our movie(LFS)... Anyway, a lot had crossed my mind that night... I am happy but there are things that bothers me at the moment.... hayyyy I better go... Just an update!

I won't be sleeping like how I woke up...

I woke up unexplainably sad today... but hey... I still had to work... I volunteered myself to go to the province today so I can be left alone and clear my thoughts... Things have changed I guess... things are not what I thought they would be... I guess I'm too positive these days... too carefree... I didn't see it coming... but things maybe how it's suppose to be... that is what I have learned in life... I do not regret anything about it... I am happy that I had the honor of being in this situation... of course, not including the ending :) but its okay... I do not blame anyone... and I promised myself that I'll be cool... I guess I won't be sleeping like how I woke up then... *winks*

My "Stupid" Thoughts!

Okay... so the day wasn't exactly the one I had in mind... yesterday, I knew something was gonna happen... in the office, two people were hmmm... discharged! Well of course, there were grounds they broke... I was kinda okay with one of them... but now I don't know how to react... I'm kinda blank so to say... sometimes, decisions can be harsh if you follow your heart..... that is what I've learned... hehehe Anyway, I use to have this co-worker that I always argue with... say harsh words.... but everything is a joke for us... I know some people who doesn't know us would be surprised on how we joke about each other and anything under the sun.... but today! I told myself I'll be nice... hehe it actually felt weird... I am naturally nice (hmm in doubt!) to other people except to him... and he is likewise with me... we make it a point that we have "bullets" for each other everytime we cross each others path bwahahaha... anyway, it really felt weird and funny... because the people around us were not use to us being nice to each other... hehehe just silly rantings!!!

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a friend texted me a quote that goes like this: "we can close our eyes to things we do not want to see... but we can never close our heart to things we do not want to feel..."

I thought about it for a while and told myself how easy things will be if our hearts got a reset or a power button... to just start all over again or shut it up for all eternity... hehe okay, I was exaggerating! at least have a cold boot like the personal computers... hehe anyway, I am not sure about closing our eyes to things we do not want to see.... because I think that the heart could see... even if you close your eyes... your eyelids seems to be transparent.... you still know whats going on even if you've closed your eyes.... you still feel they're or its there.... moving... unrelenting... the only way to not see things you don't want to see... is to learn to be numb and uncaring on things you don't want to feel... hehe Stupidity in numerous words!!!
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why do people break rules? I think there are no rules in life that weren't broken... if you haven't littered... someone already had.... if you haven't cheated... many already did.... I mean there are no rules that were spared to being broken.... or could you name one? hehehe just a senseless thought... ciao peeps

Back to Reality so Soon?

One friend told me that there would be a time in your life that you wouldn't need or want anything... that everything is as simple as letting life pass by peacefully... that nothing would make you happy or sad at the moment.... I told him that that moment already came in my life... when he asked me when... I got confused... I guess if it did happen... it could be considered as brief silence in my life... it was really short... I didn't realized it passed by until I was asked about it... or probably it was me who made it short... thinking of having a peaceful moment in your life is really a moment everybody would want to enjoy... but somehow, somewhere... sometimes... when you are enjoying the moment... it ends... just like that! Maybe it was me... maybe I was the one who ended that moment... maybe it was my pace... because almost all my life... I believed that everything is a choice... and ending that tranquility was my choice... now I'm back... my mind is once again "at work"... Day and night, it never seized to work... sometimes against me... but most of the time... it only plays as my own critic! :)

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Something just made me laugh.... hmm I mean someone ;p Tomorrow will be a busy day... but 1/3 of it... I think will be fun! :P I hope I have made sense hahaha ciao peeps!

Lost the Touch?!

I think I just lost the urge to write the way I use to... maybe because I can not find anything to express without telling anyone what I mean... masking feelings with words... hehe I just realized... I miss getting angry... its been a long time hahaha the fact is... I've been trying to think of what to write... but as I was staring at the blank page of this "create"... I realized that my mind is as empty as it is hahaha I can't feel anything at the moment... or maybe this signifies that my heart is currently "emotionless" hehehe but don't get me wrong... I am actually not empty... :P If you know what I mean...

Hmmm I gotta stop this post now... coz... I won! :P Hummm I am the only one who understands that last statement!!! hahahha

Waiting for Tonight...

I stayed home today because I wasn't feeling well... I can't travel so someone took over my work for this day... *sigh*... I actually like resting but this time I feel like I want to go somewhere... I received a really bad news this morining... 5AM... having heard that news... I really want to go off my way to see if all is going to be well... but I can't I stayed home because we are also expecting a delivery today.... and somebody needs to receive the items.... and since this is the case... I can't go where I need to go... because I also need transpo and a company to be with me on the trip... I guess I'm stucked then.... I pray that everything will be okay...


Since I couldn't get out of my bed... I just read the book a friend lent me two days ago... it was a small book but I feel that it is really interesting so I went on reading... I am halfway to finishing the book when suddenly someone messaged me... hay well.... I really don't want to think about it anymore since I still have something to worry about...

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funny thought:

When men are asked to buy sanitary napkins or panty liners, they suddenly found themselves lost in a twilight zone somewhere inside the store.

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I'm getting confused over something... tsk tsk... >:P gotta clear the clouds for the meantime! ciao!

"Breakfast @ Tiffany's"

Yesterday, I spent my evening reviewing all my writings on my other blog... Its funny... I never thought I could write some of those stuff... (of course, it wasn't that good and I've got some grammar errors but hey still proud of my "stories";)... Thanks a lot neo for appreciating my daily blogs.... Well, as you said its been a long time since I last posted... I still couldn't think of what to write... maybe its just because of my current feeling that is why I am writing now... haha sometimes I just feel so stupid... but as you told me... I shouldn't hurt myself this way... thank you for that dude... hmmm I am starting to feel I shouldn't be writing this here... its more on a testimonial than a blog hahahaha *Sigh*... this afternoon I thought about people who can be so insensitive at times... if something seems to be not as planned... better let the people involve know as early as possible... Right, Neo?! That's all I could say!!!

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Everynight before I sleep... I held on to something I never knew how to use... (actually I did... but maybe I do not know it like the back of my hands...)... Anyway, it was a gift from someone special... a precious gift... It somehow keeps me sane in this world of insanity... It somehow bears my sorrows... depression.... The times when I was down... It was like a shoulder I cried on... when I was weary... It somehow gave me strength... :)

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Breakfast at Tiffany's Lyrics

You say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know you just don't care

CHORUS:
And I said what about "Breakfast at Tiffany's?
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got."

I see you - the only one who knew me
And now your eyes see through me
I guess I was wrong
So what now? It's plain to see we're over,
And I hate when things are over -
When so much is left undone

CHORUS:
And I said what about "Breakfast at Tiffany's?
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got."

You say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know you just don't care

CHORUS:
And I said what about "Breakfast at Tiffany's?
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got."

Finally.... A Smile....

Sometimes when you're hurt... you'll feel that the world has turned its back on you... that nothing ever matters anymore... too much pain made you so numb, that healing feels so impossible.... Sometimes you're too hurt that you are blinded you couldn't see anymore light in your life.... But great things happen when you least expect it... Today felt like a regular day until I decided to do something I thought I would never do again.... I never thought that I would finally learn to smile again despite of what is happening around me.... Smile regardless of an expectation I have about my feelings towards something.... Smile just because I wanted to smile..... Smile because I am happy.... Actually, I still have a confusion over my feelings right now... Maybe because I am not sure if my smile was to remain forever.... but finally... after so long.... a smile is evident.... Goodnight Bloggers...

Think or Feel?

I remember walking by Amphi Theatre with my bestfriend Lena... We talked about how obvious that women are emotional and men aren't.... Well, if you notice when men make statements... and women say the same essence only in a different way.... Example... the use of "Think"and "Feel"... Did you know that men uses "think" more than "feel" and women does it the other way around... like when men say simple things like: "I think this color doesn't suit me..." or not so simple ones like "I think that this relationship should come to an end... I think we should part ways.... because it wouldn't be good for us..." ..... And then when its a woman who would be saying those... it would be: "I feel this color doesn't suit me..." and "I feel that this relationship should come to an end... I feel that we should part ways.... because it wouldn't be good for us..." ..... I am not sure if anyone agrees with me... just a thought though... Maybe we, women, should try using "think" more because being emotional makes us "weak" in a sense...