I do not understand...

I'm in Vigan, watching a local story on TV... Some things flashed back on me...

He has changed... after everything that I have given him... it was not enough for him to hold on to me... it was not enough for him to keep his feelings for me...

I kissed him... He kissed me back... but I don't understand... it was a cold kiss... a day before that... I was aloof with him... but he reaches out to my arm just to touch me... just to feel me near... but now I do not understand...

I hugged him... He let me... but I don't understand... his arms were not holding me near... a day before that... It was awkward for me to hug him because we agreed not to be too close... but he kept hugging me like he didn't care... just to make me feel how much he misses me... but now I do not understand...

I cuddled him... He just smiled... but I don't understand... the smile was empty... a day before that... I wasn't sure of even touching him... but he came near me... he looked at me with longing... and I asked him if he wants a hug... he hugged me like he never want to let go... but now I do not understand...

We had to part ways one day... He bid goodbye and never looked back... I was waiting and hoping for a glympse but there was none... and I don't understand... it was not long ago that we could not bear parting ways... some time before that... he could not bear seeing me walk away... he kept holding back the tears... but fell otherwise because of the pain we are feeling... but now I do not understand...

He was fickle... much more fickle than I am... Yesterday, he loved me... he proposed to me... today he is cold... today he can love me no more... I do not understand...how he could change his mind overnight... the other day he was sure that he wants to spend his entire life with me... but now... I do not understand...