Maybe one day...

I thought you were mine... I never thought that circumstances could still take you away from me... We were happy together remember?! I don't know why you changed... From the sweetest man I know to the most cruel person in my life.... You knew how much I loved you... How big I risked just for this relationship to grow... It grew alright! but what... I promised never to surrender on any trials that might come... I attempted to but did not went on... I remembered my promises... I remembered how you begged me never to leave you... I was good at it... keeping promises... but what good did it do for me... You are no longer mine... You surrendered your love... you chose someone else... you took me for granted for someone who takes you for granted... I can not keep anyone who pushes me away.... I did my best never to look at anyone else's good qualities for me to never be tempted... for me to love you genuinely... but now I kinda wished I did... at least we could be quits... you chosed someone over me... I should have chosen someone else over you... I kinda wish we never met... at least I will not mind you walking away from me.... but that was not the case... I met you... I've known more about you... I fell in love with you... I risked everything for you... and now you have left me... I hate what happened... more so I hate myself... for being too gullible on all the things you say.. I trusted you too much... I should have backed off... I knew you said I can never understand you... but I did... I do... I still do... that is why I try to be your friend... but what now?... you pushed me again... you don't want me by your side... It hurts me even more.... You want me to be gone entirely in your life... and I can't do anything anymore... I'll probably be alone now... trying to find out where to search for the pieces of me.... I hope one day I'll be back smiling again... tell you I have moved on... I hope one day... the promises I kept are given more value... I hope one day... I would be happy... may it be with you or not...