If I Knew Who I Was

I've been one of the most talkative person I know in my entire life... I usually air out how I feel and fight anyone who hurts me on purpose... I do not care how people see me as long as I know I am right... I hate stepping on anybody and I hate people who does that... I am as describe by the people I know and people who I just got acquainted with as a person who is bubbly, funny, smart, kind and most of all real...
This gives me a headache to think... If I am the person I know that I am... why do I have to keep my silence for your sake... Why do I keep on bearing lies that I should be ignoring... If I am who I know I am... why do I keep everything to myself now? It was mine... you know what it is...and you told me that it is... but I kept silent when someone claimed it... It was me... you said that it's me... but I kept silent when someone answered when you called me... It was ours... we believed that it was ours... but I kept silent when somebody claimed it... I do not know why I always let you decide... maybe because I know you know what is right.... and least risky... I do not know why I keep silent even if my heart has been pounding so hard for the truth to come out... I do not know why you said it was only me who knew the truth... but can I disclose it? If I can... I still won't... why??? because I respect you that you would be the one to make it all work... to tell the whole truth... to stop all the lies...