Quite Tired...

I opened my Notebook and sees his face at the background... it gives me pain but I couldn't bear to remove it.... I woke up thinking... He has lied again probably... ohh.. sorry... He has not lied... because he has not said anything to be considered a lie... he just did not say anything... which led me to thinking a lot once again... I had reach an emotional state earlier... I think I'm getting tired... quite tired.... but not quite there yet... I love him really... but I got an illustration of whats happening in my mind... I felt like I tripped over a cliff where only him... was there... he grabbed my hand and kept holding on to me... he says: "Hold on to me... never go tired... we can do this..."... but looking at our hands... I was the only one holding on... gripping hard so I won't fall... and I'm slipping already... hold on... because I'm quite tired holding on for myself...