Old me! New Me!

A thought crossed my mind before going to sleep...
I remember thinking whats best for me all the time... way back in elementary. I escape on a lot of problems back then. I was scared to fail, to look like a fool and to look unpretty. I am scared of what people will say and what I would be in the future. I am scared to risk anything. I am scared of deciding on almost everything even to the extent of what color of clothing to buy. I am scared to be disliked by people. I am scared to look stupid and to be compared with others... I am scared of a lot of things... I couldn't imagine how I could turn to be someone that I am now.... Don't get me wrong... I am still scared... but my fears have change... Maybe all of us passes this stage... being scared for ourselves.... Now, I am more confident with myself.. I speak my mind. I am goofy at times.. I mean most of the times... I accept failure and bad comments (although its hurts at times... but you can never please everybody!)... I can be stupid at times.. but still hate to be compared to others... :) what I am scared of till now is for my future... monetarily and also for my life.... in every sense...but I try to live by day now... because it hurts my heart and my mind to think too much.... maybe thats wrong... I will try to balance anyway... goodnight!!!

I'm Alive and Kicking....... *ss

YEBAH!!! I kinda feel reborn though exhausted... Lots of pendings and still smiling... Could I have eaten something??? Yeah... gotta eat lots of pork from now on... eeewww... I forgot... I'm not a big fan of pork!!! hehehehe.... Hmm Kinda sad and happy now.. sad because somebody got mad at me... happy because i found out that there was something genuine in any pool of lies... what heck do I mean.... whahaha Nah-da!!!! I realized I need to be happy with my life... because not all people are doing as I am.... they may be suffering worse situations than I am.. Current Situation: My eyes are tired... My Brain is stressed out... My body seems to be heavy... I am short monetarily.... but what the H*ll... :D My heart is happy because of him.... and that gets me going!!!