New Year's Resolution

I got to think what to do starting next year....

• Love myself more...
  
• Stop myself from buying things that aren't useful...
  
• Refrain from talking about myself too much...
  
• Try to fix my things...
  
• Try to make my bed every morning...and before going to bed...
  
• Refrain from eating too much chicken... Allergies.. Haay...
  
• Try to keep my pay slip... hehehe
  
• Calm down...
  
• Sing better... hahahaha...
  
• Love more!!! Hate less!!! Forgive often!!! Forget truly... and Learn fast!!!
  

Hmmm... I think thats all for now... muah... Happy New Year Everyone!!!

Quite Tired...

I opened my Notebook and sees his face at the background... it gives me pain but I couldn't bear to remove it.... I woke up thinking... He has lied again probably... ohh.. sorry... He has not lied... because he has not said anything to be considered a lie... he just did not say anything... which led me to thinking a lot once again... I had reach an emotional state earlier... I think I'm getting tired... quite tired.... but not quite there yet... I love him really... but I got an illustration of whats happening in my mind... I felt like I tripped over a cliff where only him... was there... he grabbed my hand and kept holding on to me... he says: "Hold on to me... never go tired... we can do this..."... but looking at our hands... I was the only one holding on... gripping hard so I won't fall... and I'm slipping already... hold on... because I'm quite tired holding on for myself...

His Name is...

I woke up one morning as the sunlight hits the lids of my eyes... I thought "hmm... did someone opened my blinds?" I slowly opened my eyes and a shadow covered the light... I could not see his face... he was looking at me for minutes... probably hours... I got up my bed and went pass through him... I told him to leave me but he only gave me a deafening silence and an unexplainable look in the eye... I went on preparing my clothes for the day... I washed my face and brushed my teeth... While looking through the mirror I saw him standing behind me... seems like begging for my attention... I just shut my eyes and continued with my brushing... After I took a bath... I went to my room and changed.... As I was doing my make up... he was still standing behind me... seems like he was gonna cry... But I just shook my head and went to work... I was surprised when I saw him in my office... He was standing by my PC... "Sh*t... What the heck are you doing here???"... and he begged "Please talk to me.." but all I heard were murmurs... I did not fully understand what he said... so I went on with my day... finishing everything I can... Alas! I'm done! I'm going home now... I rode a cab home... I was alone... I thought I was... When I lifted my head I saw him by the driver's seat... He never left me... He kept on following me... everywhere... I arrived home... paid the cab and went home running fast... I thought I lost him... but I was wrong... He was waiting for me in my room... Finally, I was fed up... I confronted him and ask why he kept on following me... only these words were the key to his mystery... "Because you kept running away from me... I want you to face and talk to me..." who was the guy??? His name is "Problem".
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Moral Lesson:
Problems won't leave you... They are there unless you face them...

Yes Folks! I am WEIRD!

I was talking to Theresa just a this day and shared to her some of the weirdest things I have done in my life... hehe She said it was really funny and that it would be a nice entry for my blog... let's start...

• I was around 10 years old when I did something I really regret... I forgot what actually happened... I just found myself talking to God... "God... you are the only one who knows what I have done... I wish You could forgive me... I can't bear You being mad at me... and in punishment for having wronged You... I will kneel over this cup of salt!!!" hahaha so I sprinkled salt on the floor and kneeled... looking up the altar I told God... "Lord... it really hurts huh..." hehehe
  
• Another, I fell inlove a few times when I was younger... I write love letters and stuff but never gave them... I do that still though... but back then.. after writing letters and stuff... I burn them where the wind blows... and then I speak to the wind if he could carry my message to the person that letter was intended for... Sometimes I tear the letter in small pieces and try to soften them in water... and then pour it in the toilet and flush it down... then think that the process of evaporation, condensation and presipitation will carry my message to whoever the letter was for... hahaha I never thought those moments would be something to laugh about!!!
  
• When I was in college... I light incenses in front of my window where the wind could blow the scent of roses... and kneeled there and Pray... "Lord, Please carry this message to him..." and read my letter while my eyes are bursting with tears!!! bwahahahaha

Ewwww!!! I never thought I was that weird until today!!! hahahahahah...
Actually there are more stories in my life that are really weird... but I'll just post this for now...

The Heart

How heavy can a heart ever feel without you wanting to give up??? Maybe as heavy as the Earth and the Sun and all the Stars and Planets in the Universe rolled into one.... How long can a person endure pain in their hearts??? Maybe longer than forever.... How far can the heart go out of its beating just to make things work??? Maybe as far as death could bring it.... How many lies and false hopes can the heart close its eyes to??? Maybe more than we could ever think of.... But if the heart is that great to endure all pains, suffer all lies and false hopes, wait for something you are not sure of and carry anything heavier than it could really carry... Does it ever stop and think that its enough??? Does it ever get there??? I am not sure how long the heart could face all this.... I am not sure if it will ever stop feeling pain and be numb... I am not sure... come to think of it... what am I sure about? I am loving and hurting at the same time... but maybe thats the whole essence of it.... That you feel pain because you love... and that when you love it is a given fact that we all should be ready to feel those pain.... Or we feel love because we had felt pain already.... haaay... I think I'm going crazy... I hate false hopes...

He is Tired!?!?

Just got back from our Christmas Party.... Been talking for nearly 5 hours without break...because I hosted the party... then he textes me and he was furious...He said I didn't even texted him... maybe I should have asked for a break to text him... but I guess I wanted it all to get over with so I can go home already... but what did he do... He said he was tired of me... He waited 5 hours and then he was tired of me... Last October, someone went back here... and he tells me lies that he wasn't with that person... and I trusted him... and almost everyday I wait till 3 in the morning... but did I ever told him I was tired... no! never! I never thought that 5 hours is as long as waiting from 7 pm to 3 am everyday... or could be longer.... it hurts so much!!! Like I didn't matter... I gave him my all and he says he's tired.... before he use to tell me... I might give up on him.... Now... I wonder what he says to himself... Sh*T!!! it really hurts... He's been hurting me all along and I'm still here... and he questions my love??? that's so absurd!!!

My Weird Pet II

If you find Tailless weird... I have 2 other significant weird pets. Here goes...
My mother never wanted as to have pets aside from having a duckling and some chicks. So me and my brother took care of two more pets. We had a beetle named "Blender" and an ant named "Dingding".
Blender was a black tiny beetle with 2 white curves drawn on its back. Not much to tell about Blender so I'll proceed with my ant.
We saw Dingding when we were observing a cracked on our wall. Out came a very unusual ant. The very first time we saw a black FAT ant. Not the usual small ones... and since she came out from our dingding- English translation: Wall, we named her after her origin. Dingding was cute and she eats all the food that we give her. She sleeps in a match box with cotton for comfort. One day, Dingding seems to have broken her leg. So my brother and I decided to cure her. We gave her a big drop of alcohol. She swam and swam until I pulled her up. Poor Dingding... she almost drowned. I'm not sure if the alcohol ever did its part that we thought it would... I'm not sure if Dingding was better after swimming. Anyway, one day, Dingding was lost. we could not find her... My Brother and I became so sad... We watched the other ants in different places. One day, we saw a lot of ants... and a lot of Dingding for the record... wow, all the while we thought Dingding was the only black, fat ant... hahah :)
I hope you don't think I'm crazy... heheh Have a nice day!

Weird Pet I

Back in elementary, I had a lizard who's less than an inch long. It was still a baby but already lost its tail. I named it....Tailless.
The first time I saw Tailless, he was a lonely lizard wandering in a pile of books and papers on top of our study table. I saw him and felt the need to take care of the poor lizard. I tried to catch him but he was running really fast and scared... I finally caught Tailless and locked him in my cupped palm... I tried to give him a grain of rice but was too scared to accept my offer. After a few minutes of taming... Tailless finally made friends with me. He took the grain of rice and ate it. He was looking at me with mysterious eyes... He probably is thankful because he was really hungry. I set Tailless free by putting him on the drapes...
The next morning I saw Tailless running down from our drapes. I was happy to see him and so I offered him a ride on my palm. He unhesitantly boarded my palm and I was happy. I took him to get some rice grains for him to eat. He was a healthy lizard and seems to be a happy one. When I arrived from school, Tailless would usually come down from the drapes and I would put him and hang him on my shorts. And this went on for days. Until one day, my mother felt the need to give him food so she tried to catch Tailless. Tailless was really scared and ran far away from the drapes and my mom. When I got back, I could not find Tailless. He was gone. He was nowhere in sight. I wonder if he's now a happy lizard... *sigh*
hahaha... as weird as it may seem, everything about this story is true... I really had a lizard named Tailless. :D

"10 Things I Hate About You"- My Version

1. I hate you when you tell the truth... more when you tell lies...
2. I hate you for telling everything... more when you keep things from me...
3. I hate it when you're sad... more when you cry...
4. I hate it when I'm dying to see you... more when I know couldn't die just like that...
5. I hate it when you're too good... more when you are to "others"
6. I hate it when you smile... more when you make me crazy wondering why you’re not...
7. I hate it when you speak... 'Coz your voice makes me forget every pains and aches...
8. I hate it when all I could think of is you... more when I thought of losing you…
9. I hate it when I couldn't do anything... more when I know that I really could...
10. I hate you coz I know I can never hate you… never in my heart… never even in thoughts…

Old me! New Me!

A thought crossed my mind before going to sleep...
I remember thinking whats best for me all the time... way back in elementary. I escape on a lot of problems back then. I was scared to fail, to look like a fool and to look unpretty. I am scared of what people will say and what I would be in the future. I am scared to risk anything. I am scared of deciding on almost everything even to the extent of what color of clothing to buy. I am scared to be disliked by people. I am scared to look stupid and to be compared with others... I am scared of a lot of things... I couldn't imagine how I could turn to be someone that I am now.... Don't get me wrong... I am still scared... but my fears have change... Maybe all of us passes this stage... being scared for ourselves.... Now, I am more confident with myself.. I speak my mind. I am goofy at times.. I mean most of the times... I accept failure and bad comments (although its hurts at times... but you can never please everybody!)... I can be stupid at times.. but still hate to be compared to others... :) what I am scared of till now is for my future... monetarily and also for my life.... in every sense...but I try to live by day now... because it hurts my heart and my mind to think too much.... maybe thats wrong... I will try to balance anyway... goodnight!!!

I'm Alive and Kicking....... *ss

YEBAH!!! I kinda feel reborn though exhausted... Lots of pendings and still smiling... Could I have eaten something??? Yeah... gotta eat lots of pork from now on... eeewww... I forgot... I'm not a big fan of pork!!! hehehehe.... Hmm Kinda sad and happy now.. sad because somebody got mad at me... happy because i found out that there was something genuine in any pool of lies... what heck do I mean.... whahaha Nah-da!!!! I realized I need to be happy with my life... because not all people are doing as I am.... they may be suffering worse situations than I am.. Current Situation: My eyes are tired... My Brain is stressed out... My body seems to be heavy... I am short monetarily.... but what the H*ll... :D My heart is happy because of him.... and that gets me going!!!

Three things...

Three names you go by:
1. Rotch
2. Rotchie
3. Totit
Three screen names you have had:
1. Sapphire_Fairy
2. Unsweetened
3. Rotchiekins
Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. Fineness and color of my hair
2. Smile of my lips and eyes
3. collar bones
Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. few strands of my hair
2. knees and legs
3. back dami pimples
Three parts of your heritage:
1. Chinese
2. Filipino
3. Spanish
Three things that scare you:
1. Still working when I'm old
2. Not being successful
3. Heights
Three of your everyday essentials:
1. bathe and brush
2. My kikay stuff
3. My Cell
Three of your favorite musical artists: (yan lang naisip ko ngayon)
1. Selena
2. Allison Krauss
3. Seal
Three of your favorite songs (these answers are based on my current mood):
1. Fields of Gold
2. Kiss From a Rose
3. Like a Virgin (Hahahaha may kwento to e!)
Three things you want in a relationship:
1. Sacrifices
2. Will to make everything work
3. Faithfulness
Three lies and truths in no particular order:
Lies: 1. I am fed up. 2. I hate life. 3. I can never forgive.
Truths: 1. I believed in God. 2. There is reason for everything. 3. Acceptance is key to happiness (by HOC).
Three things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
1. Face especially the eyes
2. smell
3. Haircut
Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. write
2. surf
3. think
Three things you want to really do badly now:
1. sleep
2. go out
3. drink coffee and talk
Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. Be a chef
2. Be a designer
3. Be a dermatologist
Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Palawan
2. Bohol
3. Paris
Three kids' names you like:
1. Nicole/ Nicoli
2. Axle
3. Hannah
Three things you want to do before you die:
1. Talk to the people I love
2. Picnic on top of the building and watch the city lights
3. Go back to the place that i could vaguely remember
Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. I like looking at beautiful women.
2. I don't really like asking for help.
3. I am not flimsy and feminine
Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. The magic word for me is SALE!!!
2. I do color coordination. Shoes and belts... shoes and bags... blouse and shoes and hair bond... etc.
3. I spend 30 mins to an hour in the bathroom and 30 minutes in front of the mirror and looking for what to wear.
Three people I would like to see take this quiz:
1. friends
2. officemates
3. anybody else...

My day!

Changed the appearance of my blog... from pink to green! hehe I like the color combinations... changed my title and subtitle too... it speaks more...
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hmmm... My friend just texted me... his wife just gave birth to a healthy baby boy! :) Welcome to the "Outside" Xyrus!

I talked to someone a while ago... I'm not sure if he's fine... I hope he is... I think he knows how I am right now too... hmm cause I also told him what I am currently feeling... I just don't want things to be all too late... malay natin... bukas wala na ako... haay... I pray for you... I will always pray for you.... may not be all the time but every minute I call God's name... He knows that in my heart I wish you all the goodness....

Dramatic entry... hahaha don't mind me... just feeling kinda emotional right now... *sob*

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Whatever Is In My Mind...

* did something I am not sure I should have done... like reacting like I was not suppose to... sorry my friend...
* told a person about my friend... I hope he wishes me happiness...
* ask someone if its okay to get back to someone from my past... did not get any answers though...
* wasn't progressing in my work... I wonder why.
* missing someone... A LOT...
* saw someone.. I was very happy...
* wants to update my friendster blog but couldn't because of my limited access...

I can't think of anything anymore... Goodnight everyone! :)

Blinding Anger

Yesterday, I had a client meeting and because of that I wasn't able to witness a "crime"... My officemates told me that a guard of a shop shot a "flyer-man" of our client. Whats the reason? because he was handing out flyers infront of the other store... hmmm... was that enough reason to shoot someone??? maybe this is again an example of the "blinding" anger... people... tsk tsk...

Another is the story of my brother's girlfriend, Tim... She was in a line to get an Light Rail Transit (LRT) ticket... one guy says "Assholes! That is not the entrance"... another guy answers "You're the Asshole! This is the entrance!" until they raised voices... one guy pulled a gun and pointed it on the other man... everybody ran far from that place... except for Tim... she was shocked... maybe she couldn't move.... the guy with the gun was a police... so the other guy said " You're a police?! Go ahead! Fire!"... but the police realizes that there were many witnesses looking... he put down the gun and they were sent to the LRT office where the police kept on apologizing.... and then Tim... still shocked... went on... waiting for the LRT... after she got in... and minutes passed... she heard a girl shouting "You Perv!"... Apparently, she was accusing the man to be rubbing his phallus against the girl... she kept on shouting and the guy kept on shouting back! The guy said "Miss I have no intention of doing that! I can hardly move with all these people... I've been riding LRT so many times and I have never encountered such shameful accusations..." and the girl probably answered him back... the guy continued "and one more... For your information, you're not my time... because YOU ARE U-G-L-Y!" Wow! that was mean... the crowd laughed hehe ofcourse girl said "You're Rude!" The guy answered "Because you are putting me in shame... they are all looking at me...." And so on and so forth... many joined the debate... but only one old woman stopped everything by saying "you men... put your cr*tches to where they should be!" hahah everybody bursted out in a big loud laughter...

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Attached is the collage I made which I also posted in my frienster collages album... you can check it here:

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Thanks.... Tatah...

If Everything is just this Simple...

Have you ever wished that you never grew up? I remember wishing that before... if everything was just this simple.... below is a part of the song "Happiness" by Lea and Gerard Salongga... I'm no fan of theirs but this song is really a... a.... a kid's song... a simple definition of happiness...


Lea:Happiness is two kinds of ice cream
Finding your skate key, telling the time
Happiness is learning to whistle
Tying your shoe for the very first time
Happiness is playing the drum in your own school band
And happiness is walking hand in hand

Gerard:Happiness is five different crayons
Knowing a secret, climbing a tree
Happiness is finding a nickel
Catching a firefly, setting him free
Happiness is being alone every now and then
And happiness is coming home again

yeaahhh... I use to feel this way too... hahaha But as we grow old... we take all simple happiness for granted... we just aim for the big ones... ciao!

My Series of Unfortunate Events

Oh my... I'm sinking in a pile of problems already... I couldn't find my folder and I'm really stressed out... I opted to write first before getting back to work... In Davao, I've been too busy to rest... and something happened there that I really feel small... I hope I could turn back time... haay... I'll try to enumerate my unfortunate events...

• We left a box in Manila and realized it 12 Hours after we got there. Of course, domino effect...
  
• We had to pay 3,810.89 for excess baggage...
  
• I never got enough sleep there... but its okay...
  
• And then I lost the keys to the display cabinet... buti nalang may extra... and then eventually I found it at the corner of my hotel cabinet.
  
• I was pissed off by someone... but now we're good... hehehe
  
• And then I keep on loosing my pricelist...fortunately, someone returns them to me...
• I also keep on forgetting a lot of things...
  
• And there's a swindler roaming around my booth!
  
• The "something" that happened... really feel sad...
  
• When we got home from Davao... our clients personnel went home with one of our bags... so there... we left it in Davao... and still need to pay 2,099.99 for excess baggage... Also I accidentally brought with me to Manila... my client's calculator hihi... he kept messaging me to send it along with his stocks incase he orders....
  
• My mom and I had a petty fight in the car when I got back...
  
• Earlier I thought I lost a document... was thinking of forging the signature... luckily I found it... actually... I got scared of forging it so I was planning to tell the truth...
  
• Now... I can't find an important folder.... Haaayy....
  

So, what is happening to me??? I think I need a time off from my work... I'm thinking of filing a leave and go somewhere far... haaay I need a vacation... tatah!!!

Moving on...

Life can be so cruel sometimes but we can't do anything about that... we just have to bear with it and see the light in the midst of the dark... sometimes we think we're so down but the truth is you just have to look around to feel better... a friend told me he roams around squatters area when he's down... so that he'll see that he's in a "not-so-bad" situation at all...

There's a story in my mind... about the old and the younger foot... They both wear shoes that they couldn't remove... the younger foot is such a blabber... he keeps on talking about his pains caused by the new hole because of walking too much... one time the hole let in a small pebble... it irritated him so much because it made some scratches on him and gave him pains... and then he met the old foot... his shoes looked so torned up and had a lot of holes...so the younger foot thought "how many pains and wounds from pebbles could those holes had caused him?" and so he asked the old foot... the old foot just said calmly "as we grow old we can never stop getting holes on our shoe and pebbles through those holes... there are also many kinds of pebbles... some are rough... some are spiny... you're just lucky if you get the smoother ones..." he smiled and continued " I still have a pebble below my heel... I got it years and years ago... but I learned to live with it... that is why it never bothers me anymore... and I have moved on with my life.."

I just made this story (it was inspired by a story I vaguely remember reading during my elementary days)... I'm not sure if it's good... but the story is implying that we should not blab about all our problems... problems will come and go... some stays.. but life should not end there... we should learn to live with it... just wanna share!

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Thought to ponder:
How should you wear your belt? Should the end go towards left or right?
Ciao Bloggers!

Why's

Why...

• ...do we make actions (rubbing chin or forehead, tapping our fingers against our head, racking head back and forth, etc.) when we think?
  
• ...do we feel itchy when someone keeps on scratching him/herself?
  
• ...do we feel like taking a puke when someones making a sound like he's letting out a cow from his mouth?
  
• ...do people have the tendency to say stupid things? (tao lang?)
  
• ...do we look for something that wasn't there? (Natural! hahaha)
  
• ...are mosquitos keep biting me??? *furious* hehehe
  
• ...am I asking these kind of questions?
  
• ...are you reading my blogs? (hehe okay lang... thanks for reading!)
  

No more questions your honor... case dismiss!!! hehehe Goodnight Bloggers!

Summarized Happenings

Hello there peeps... been busy this past few weeks... and will be busy for the coming weeks... Nothing much happening, just working.... Anyway, I'll just write it in bullets...

• Leaving Manila July 6... but I'll be back on the 10th
  
• Met a new friend... Her name is Issa... :)
  
• bumped my head on the corner of a metal signboard... (it still hurts! haha)
  
• June 29... finished half a bottle of 1.5 liter Coke and then I had an acidity attack after an hour! hehe
  
• Was going to drink coke again June 30 after eating pineapple but my sister got mad... Because she was the one I bothered when I had the attack and she had to take care of me!!! haha *batting eyelashes*
  
• I got a Levi's wrist strap and Levi's memo book with denim case... from Mark (Maymay's hmmm what ba???)
  
• Fixed and cleaned my side table by my bed cause I'm coughing due to the dust hehehe
  
• Have a lot of pending works... I'm getting crazier and crazier each day that passes!!! hehehe
  
• Received a letter from SMC... Hmmm...
  

Can't think of anything anymore... :) I'll write again soon... as soon as everything is flowing well... tatah! :D

Nothing Much!!!

Haven't updated this blog for quite sometime now... because I've been busy with my blog in friendster... because I am trying not to double post... still I double post sometimes... anyway, since I can't access friendster from my home... this is where I'll write my blog....

I am leaving Manila on July 6... on my way to Davao to attend an event... be back by 10th...

Hmm... Nothing much happening with me right now... Just talked to a lot of people for enlightenment... Guess I needed so much friends... Thanks everyone... yet, I realized that the only way to understand fully what's happening is to face the whole truth from the horse's mouth... So that will be my advice... If you want to know something don't hesitate to ask the horse... hehe joke... I meant the person involve....

Anyway, I couldn't think of a good thing to right... I'll just write again..... Goodnight Bloggers!!!

What do you call a Badminton Player? Badmintoner?

I played badminton with Heidi, Wilbert and Chester just an hour or two ago... They said I was improving... I hope so. I'm not sure if I really was because I've been trying to hit the shuttlecock the way I wasn't hitting it the last time...so maybe I was. I never thought I would remember how to play 'cause I havent played it for I think more than 3 months now. I was shy that I could not compete with their performance because they were really good and I was the neophyte but I guess everyone was a baby before they grew up to be an adult. I almost sprained my ankle for stepping my right foot at a wrong direction and nearly twisting it... luckily I was able to control it... but when I got home, I still had an injury because I fell down on our bedroom floor haha... clumsy me.

New Addiction:
1. Starwars Commando (PC Game) - did not pursue I might not stop
2. Lord of the Rings (PC Strategy Game) - did not pursue I might not stop too
3. Santol at bagoong (Food) - just ate it kanina
4. Coke (Drink) - Gotta control this one

Q & A without the A:
1. What is the english word for "Konduktor"?
2. What is the tagalog word for Conductor?

No Offense meant to any guy... This just made me laugh today... :))
--> Question: Why does men cry after break-up?
Answer: (In her exact words...) men cry? Ooh yeah they do tears of joy!!!

*** Ohh... I gotto bring my VCDs for belly dancing... Heidi wants a copy!!!***

Nobody Touches My Pan!!!

Haha... As I am waiting for something here in Eastwood, Libis... I thought I'd better write something in my blog so that I get something out of my time.... I can't remember when this happened... but one time, our house helper told me that she was going to clean the cabinet where I kept a pan... This pan was given to me by a special friend... That person knew that I love cooking... (ohh... I can't remember when was the last time I ever layed my hands on any part of the kitchen... its been a long time...) Anyway, before one helper cleaned that same pan... I remembered telling her that she can't clean it... I am scared that she might put a scratch so its better if I would be the one to clean it... I'm not sure if she was deaf not to hear my clear instructions... but when I got back... My goodness! My pan was clean but with scratches... I know its just a pan... but still I told her not to clean it... now, the helper I was talking about before this... She told me that my mom saw her touch the pan... hahah she said my mom told her "Do not touch that... my daughter will get mad...." maybe my mom told her what happened before... Anyway, I gotta go... People here seems to hate friendster and bloggers... hehe they keep on saying things loudly and I am affected!

Isn't it?

haay!!! Life can be so.... shiitty... hehe excuse the word please... I told myself when I started this blog that I'm not going to write anything so depressing about me... and for me... I'm wondering, isn't it so irritating to wait?... wait and wait... when no one asked you to? Who's irritating then? yourself!!! And you hate for being that way! You'll look like a fool but your still wondering if what you are waiting for will still come... and you'll still wait... uncertain and hoping? Shiit... How irritating that makes you! How irritating that makes me... haay I don't know why I am writing this... I guess I was affected by something I read earlier... depressing... saddening... sad.. sad.. sad... goodbye everyone!

Got my 10th in my most wanted list!

Hello bloggers! Earlier, Eric told me he was looking for the "Little Prince" Story book in National Bookstore so he could buy me one. But wala pong stock. Kahit ano pa man... thanks Eric! :) This evening, I was surprised that a friend in Davao texted me. We were just talking about that book hours before he texted me, and then he told me that he was going to send me the Documents I was expecting and he would attach a book with it... "Little Prince" :) Thanks Kuya Boyet... Ingat Parati!

Vices + Job

Before I had my two jobs... I targeted marketing positions for cigarrette and alcohol-beverages companies. I don't know why I aspire to be in those firms even though I don't smoke and I am no good drinker. By the way, did you know about BJCP? It stands for Beer Judge Certification Program... Parang okay magkaroon ng ganun hehehehe Found this link via Google: http://www.sallys-place.com/beverages/beer/beer_judge.htm check it out...

Another story, Eric bought two cigarettes. Both of them are Phillip Menthol but have different appearance... I think they are both original but with different packaging... so I smelled the two and told him it has different smell... and then bli-nind fold test ako and still pin-pointed the same cigarrette that I think has better smell... hehe so what about the story? I am just hoping that I could pass CJCP e... hehehe is there such a job?

Eric, do you want to do the BJCP Test? haha you might not last till the end of the test... as if I would last haha.... peace!

How to make a perfect cup of coffee?

http://www.sallys-place.com/beverages/coffee/perfect.htm parang ang sarap subukan nito...

Bored?

try this link... http://www.i-am-bored.com may mga weird and funny tests dyan and also funny videos...

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I did a stunt earlier. If you want to read about it check http://rotchiekins.blogs.friendster.com :)

GRRRR.... I HATE CHAIN LETTERS!!!

Sino kaya ang nagimbento ng chain letters??? I normally delete it at once or throw it in the trash can... I mean why would you pass chain letters when all it does is curse other people... it will wish you good luck and then curse you... what's so good about passing it??? Siguro takot yun tao.... Anyway, today I received one... and its cursing my mother... I did not want to pass it... I'm sorry... I really hate the one who started that letter... I was forced to pass it... I'm really sorry... Buti kung ako lang ang kinu-curse dun.... but anyway, I found a way to stop it though... I changed the title to "ARRGGHH... WAG NYONG BUKSAN KUNG AYAW NYO NG CHAIN LETTERS!!!" I hope that helped to end that irritating letter I got.... Anyway, you should repost this to your blog or else... joke lang... ;) Stay cool everyone!!!

Shop till I dropped!!!

Went to 168 shopping mall with my family today... I thought I can't find anything to buy there... saw some... huhmm ok... things... saw some trendy ones... but never thought I would find some really good buys... I bought slip ons... sandals.. pants.. "purontong"... and blouses... mas malinis pala dun kesa sa tutuban at divisoria mall... you can't bear the smell on one side of Divisoria Mall... sa Tutuban naman sobrang sikip... mahirap mamili... dito sa 168, siguro kasi bago... masarap magikot... mababait ang mga tindera...except for one... hehe she's so "harsh"... I don't know what to describe her... hehe nevermind... bye for now... I have to go... ciao!!!

Day dreaming... till I got home...

uy.... nakita ko na san lalagay ang link... hehehe never mind... kakauwi ko lang galing office... half day kasi tuwing Saturday. When I was in the jeepney... I thought of a lot of things... I saw this vintage car kasi... told my self what if I was driving that car... wearing my shades... opens my window and let the "cool" breeze of Manila run through my face.... sabay ubo kasi puro usok bwahahaha... kelan kaya mawawala ang pollution sa Philippines... hmmm only a miracle could do that... Me, I have a small space in my heart na nakalaan sa environment... I love nature kasi... kaya when I eat candies, I see to it that I throw the candy wrapper in the trash can or if there's none, I would keep it in my pocket and throw it when I see one...

Anyway, lets go back to my day dream... I thought of putting up my own business... kailan kaya yun? I have no money for capital e... I wanted to own a botique, or a be a wedding specialist (make-up, gown, shoes, cakes and accessories for the tables etc.) or be a chef... own a resto... ano kaya? pero lahat yan, I would need to go on a school.... haay anyway, when I passed by an area after E. Rod... passing C3... I saw a thin kid... around 6 to 7 years old but he looked like a 4 year old to me... cause he was really small... beside him was a really.... REALLY... FAT RAT... he doesn't really care... kasi dedo na e.... naisip ko tuloy bakit ang taba nung daga.... tapos yun bata payat... ewan ko lang... ano kaya ikinamatay nun? parang may pakialam pa ako dun... hehehe....

Haay... wala lang ang haba ng sinulat ko wla naman saysay hahahha :) *wink*

P.S. I have attached the link on my friendster blog again... try ko lang...

Don't know how to put links on the side of my blog...

This is my other blog... http://rotchiekins.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/ friendster Blog.... I tried to post pictures too but I couldn't do it... I don't know whats the problem of my "Hello" and "Piccasa"... anyway, I couldn't think of anything to place on my blog... pero may pinost ako sa friendster blog ko... :)

Say Bye-Bye to "Wisdom"

Got my wisdom tooth pulled yesterday. I was really brave.(sariling buhat ng silya... hehehe) I went to the dentist alone and then I asked her to remove it that same day because I might not have time for another meeting. She said she really needs to take it off because its growing through my cheek wall...I won't go through the details for its too graphic hehe... After she pulled it, I went to Accuvision to accompany my mother with her check up... with my mouth still bleeding (kadiri no?) Then we went to Starbucks Binondo branch, 2 minute walk from Accuvision, to get something cold to drink. Then she wants to go to the salon to have her hair curled, so I also had my hair cut. It was nice but I think I'm going to faint because my mouth is still bleeding. I left my mother in the salon and head my way to our office in Binondo so I can rest... Grabe, the pain is killing me... so I drank a pain reliever... whew! I slept the entire office time in Binondo... wala naman akong work dun e... Its my moms office... :) Anyway, atleast I got one wisdom tooth out...and I'm pretty okay now... the dentist said that I had to get the other 3 Wisdom teeth out too... Waaaaahhhh!!! I have to go under this pain 4 times... haay pero okay lang... I have high pain tolerance... *wink*

Rather Inspiring...

napansin ko laging may dots after ng titles ko. :) Ako lang nakapansin kasi ako lang ang nagbabasa neto bwahahaha Anyway, I got this poem from a friend... together with the song-version (MP3) of it. Some say this poem was found on an Old St. Paul's church back in 1692 yata and some Max Erhmann earned a copyright for it in 1927... di ko nga alam kung ano talaga... Anyway, this is for all people who wants to be inspired... here's the poem...

DESIDERATA

Go placidly amid the noise and haste and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others; even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career however humble; it is a real posession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism

Be yourself. Espacially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy

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hope you like it... maybe some of you already knows about this... wala lang... ;)

Noo nee noo ni nu.....

hmmm... kaya cguro yan name ng blog ko kasi yan unang pumapasok sa ulo ko e... "HMMM...." heheh anyway, nothing much happened today... just had a chat with someone... Its funny... I never saw him as a serious person... He's more like a guy who thinks all ladies are easy... ang sama no? but he was like that before... he changed after he got married... haha thats what love can do... it enters your head and change the whole of you.... haha joke lang.... di ko alam kung talagang ganun...

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Yesterday, I had a conversation with my mom. "Serious" yata pero parang joke lang lahat... we don't normally speak english... but yesterday, english-mode kami. I told her to trust us (her children more)... told her if she believes that she has build us strong foundation, she knows that we will be good human beings.... not perfect but good. I understand her though... she's just scared... but sometimes you need to tell them how you feel. I told them to be more lenient to my elder sister... and the boyfriend of my other sister... wala lang... I just feel that I need to do something for my sisters... medyo mahigpit din sila sa youngest brother ko... kasi iba talaga ang uwi nun... anyway.... I have to go now... next time nalang ulit... Ingat Bloggers!

A long lost?! friend....

Me, Cham and Lena planned a dinner date for us... just to catch up sa mga buhay buhay namin... too bad lena was not able to come... Cham, the last time I saw her was about 4 years ago... she changed a lot... slimmer and prettier too... She's still charming and so caring... One of the kindest person on my side of the world... I missed her so much... ayaw ko pa nga umuwi kaso magcloclose na ang LRT... We had so much to talk about... sa sobrang dami I wasn't able to ask her where she is working now... I guess she's still working on the same company... just a guess... I hope masolve mo na problems mo Cham... always look at the brighter side... *wink* I wish you'll be happy with your decisions... I know naman na your a big girl now.... mas matured ka pa nga sakin e.... hehe... Keep your strong faith Cham... *hug* See you again...

Shake it Shake it...

Bakit yan ang title ko? wala lang... nakakuha ako ng coke light sa sales namin... di nila ubos... e ayaw ko may "spirit" e... so I'm shaking it like crazy... hehehe... Anyway, I talked to an old friend over the phone... till 3:30 AM... grabe... simula yata ng 9 sa text lang... tapos telepono na... nakakatawa nga usapan namin... bukingan time ba... pati bentahan ng kaibigan... haha di naman... I didn't sold my friends.... HE DID!!! bwahahaha lagot ka.... hahaha dami na ko alam... bwahahah joke lang po... di po masama mga cnabi nya... mabait daw kayong lahat... hehe anyway, I was happy I got to talk to him again... naresolve ang mga "unresolve" hahaha cge na... gotta work!!! bye!


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Happy Birthday Gumbs! Ü

bilmoko nun bilmoko nyan.... hahaha ang kapal ko...

I was gonna post this tomorrow sana... but I changed my mind... heheh here's the top ten on my "MOST WANTED" list

10. The little prince storybook by Antoinne de Saint Exupery (I asked National Bookstore.... naubusan
sila e) people said maganda daw yun...

9. A bathtub... so I could soak myself in warm water to take all my
stresses away... parang nai-istress eh no...

8. A whole day in the spa...(syempre with a friend... dapat may kasama)

7. A cool kitchen...with a bar where I can serve the one sitting...and
so I would be inspired cook and learn to cook good food!

6. A Really cool cellularphone... where I can surf the internet and I
can shoot really good stolen shots... dapat high resolution...

5. A digital camera... I like the one we use in the office... Fuji
Timepix F601 Zoom... I wanted to take good pictures kaso lang I have
"pasmado" hands kaya minsan blurred yun shots ko...(di pala minsan....
LAGI!!!)

4. A laptop... where I can post my blogs, check emails and surf
internet... write a novel...nyak!!!

3. A Mini Cooper, a Smart Car, a Peugot 206CC or a RAV4 oldest model-2 doors (love them!)
Of course I have to learn how to drive first

2. A room for myself...It will be called "my room" haha
napaka-creative... this is so that I can put all my personal stuff in
and lock myself in there if I wanted to be alone...

1. A hide-out...far far away from where I live... incase hanapin ako ng
mga kapulisan at hukbong sandatahan... hehe hindi... incase I wanted to
be faraway from my life...

Thats all... Gusto ko paggising ko anjan na ha... bwahahaha who am I kidding... *evil laugh*

Just making unnecessary Blah Blahs.... about myself...

Hey peeps! Hope your all doin' great... huhhhm... kinda bored right now... I have a lot of work to do... but I wanted to write something, although I can't figure out what... I was blog-surfing earlier... read some good ones, pacute ones, artistic ones and really informative ones... some of them got me thinking... some of them made me pout... some of them were inspiring and some of them were very interesting... I wish I could write like that... I'm actually not a good writer... I wanted be one... If I wanted to learn to write well I should start reading din…but I'm so lazy... lazy to read books... I like watching better... but I also want to change... I'm buying books now... trying to read some... I learned some too... also didn't like some books. I have narrow knowledge on music and books... I didn't really like myself that way... I wanted broad understandings on that stuff... but still too lazy... maybe my steps to trying to appreciate that stuff will soon pay off... Anyways, I'm not "bobo" naman... I just like other stuffs... like food and traveling(when can I roam the world? in my dreams!)... I like science discoveries, plants, insects, animals and human behaviors... fashion, arts(aspiring to be artist ako e... painter) , reality show and stuff...I watch Discovery Travel and Living Most of my TV Time... about books... I only read a few... looking forward to read "Da Vinci Code" still waiting for my brother to finish it... I forgot about the novel I was reading... but its about a film maker... have to finish it papala.. hayy... anyway, I think I have accomplished my task for now (on my blog)... I'm trying to update it everyday... I just don't know till when I could continue this... hehehe lazy me...*wink*

Don't know what to post...

I'm kinda happy right now thanks to kuya boyet! :) but I don't know what to share... I'll post mamaya if may maisip na ako... ;)

Just have to share this to you....

http://www.livejournal.com/users/gulsukat/381363.html found it in google! galing!

Little Heavens on Earth...

I don't know what to write in my blog... eto naisip ko... sorry kung macornyhan kayo sakin... hehe

I wonder what Heaven really looks like... Has anyone gone there? Many people say they have gone there through a near death experience. But we can never be really sure of what it looked like if we weren't the ones who saw It. Maybe someday I would... wish ko lang dun ako pumunta... So, if we haven't gone to Heaven, how do we know what it feels like? All I know is Heaven, aside from being the Kingdom of God, is also defined as extremely good... If thats the case, maybe there are little Heavens here on Earth... sakin... Its Heaven when you badly want something(Chocolates... Andes!!!) and you eat it at the peak of your cravings... Its Heaven when you go up to a high place at night and watch the city lights and enjoy the cool breeze and just think.... Its Heaven when you are with your someone enjoying every single minute over a simple cup of coffee... Its Heaven when you make sad people smile... Its Heaven when someone tells you you look pretty and make you feel like a lady... Its Heaven when someone gives you a little thing because he or she thinks you'll love it... Its Heaven when you get something so hard to have... Its Heaven when you feel loved... :) There are a lot more Little Heavens on Earth...that only our own thinks that its Heaven! kung corny ako sorry ulit ha... hehe bye bloggers!

HAH! Found it!

I posted one time na mali yun date ng blog ko... hehe I just need to look around lang pala then I'll find the answer... hmmm.... pagmay time ko na alamin yun iba... though I'm tired... and sleepless... I still got to go back to work.... Thanks everyone! ciao!

Yeaaaahh... Baby....

Had my first tattoo.... hmmm sexy no?! Henna lang po... I made it myself... its a butterfly... its on my left inside ankle... I think it looks great... Got me thinking too... Shall I get a real one? hehe loko lang... hehehe... astig na sana e... but when I was sleeping my brother made a disaster... sa likod ko... he drew an alien-looking-bug... which he said was suppose to be a butterfly... and a sun like tattoo... haha I was laughing hard when I saw it... I felt like an art paper of a 5-year old haha... worst of all... the drawing looked like it was drawn with a pentel pen on my skin... hahaha... anyway, at least we had something to laugh about and to share in my blog... Have a wonderful day! :)

Strange....Strange Dream...

Buti nalang nagising ako... haaay... I dreamed that I was about to marry someone... but to my surprise, My groom became his dad... The one I thought I would marry was the best man... naku po! luckily it was just a dream... I never thought of being a step mom to someone who is older than I am... hehe sana nga di magkatotoo... Anyway, dun sa dream, I wanted to ran away... Runaway Bride ba?... I felt that I didn't love the "Matured" Groom hehehe Strange!!! Anyway, I have to work now! Ciao!

Bakit kaya?

Bakit kaya late ng 1 day ang blog ko... kahapon ko pinost to pero di ko maedit kahapon May 23... nakalagay May 22.... Anyway, Happy Birthday May May (Shobe) and Ryan (Ahia) nun 23rd... and Happy Birthday Mommy ngayon... :) haaay...

What's about Pink?

Isn't it funny that I chose "Unsweetened" for my blog and also chose pink for my template? *smiles* Why is it that when we look at something pink they seems so sweet? When you see a girl wearing pink, why is it that she looks sweet and innocent? (that's why I like wearing pink! Bwahahaha) Actually, pink is one of my favorite colors... along with green, white and violet... Some says that there is a meaning in each color you choose... so, What is pink? Scientifically, according to my shallow research in Google (My favorite search engine thanks to Eric!), "Pink is a soothing color on all levels, physical mental and emotional levels. It can be used to soothe conditions of anger and feelings of neglect. Pink can be used to awaken compassion, love, and purity. It can be used in meditation to discern greater truths. It is comforting to the emotional energies of the individual. " and to my surprise... "Physically, pink is most effective in the treatment of skin problems and conditions, especially when combined with aqua. It also stimulates the thymus gland and ease stresses upon the immune system of the body." Isn't that cool? so much for my quick search (got lazy to look at the other searches found hehe)...Why is pink seen as an "un-male-like" (Change the word cause I think its harsh and I don't want to be discriminating human beings...) color especially when wore by men (to most people I think!)... Actually, I think the saying "It takes a real man to carry a Pink" is true... because I gave a pink shirt to a guy and he said "PINK?!" The shirt was actually nice, light and fresh... but he said it was too small... maybe he was happy that it was hahaha kidding!!! Anyway, for me pink is pretty... its a wonderful color. It gives a healthy glow to anyone who wears it. I makes you happy when you see your "pretty-in-pink" someone (guy or girl)... Anyway, Gotto go back to work now... Have a wonderful pinky day!!! *wink*